I'm happy with moments in life. because that's what life's made. of small moments that all compile to make either the greatest voyage,tragic,success,failure,lessons.either way not matter what happens in life,no matter the chapture or speed theres always going to be a reward.Even if its hard to see theres always going t be a path where someones charted course leads to a mile stone. That not matter what happens in life,theres always a will and a way to become the best success story.As long as you find the right motivation to heal, the pain to prepare for your destiny.The voyage as the struggle that lead you to learn more about your self and help your grow into who you are today.its imporant for people to always think of where they'e been to know where there going in life. just encase they cant find the motivation to find there goals. its imporant to know yourself to learn about other people. you en the end get better understand and acceptance for people that way.Its always good to have dreams.Even a back up plan or 2 Never fear the past or future only look to the future,let you past guide you to bettter the future.but never let your past fully define you b/c your past is where you learn and prepare for a better future.
That my mos by some is considered to be a male oriented MOS. Yet the misconception there's a lot more females holding it down.So when guys put out the whole, female in the army and day it like its a bad thing or it makes them uncomfortable. i just want to be like:
1973 females have been in the army, and though every one knows and guys love to put out, the Army excludes women from serving in jobs or MOS involved in direct ground combat. Where still holdin it down. There's this big misconception that its not lady like to want to be equal qith the guys. Where supose to suport the womens sufferage. have danity job and be a afraid of dirt.Let the guys do the heavy lifting, dirty work, have all the fun.
So i guess where supose to go back to 1893 and just be happy we can vote, right?
Well i for one say that its beyond time for males to just give up on that one .because its not happening. Women are allowed to be girly-girl and not be afraid to step outside the box.Not settling for the damsle in distress. And letting it be know that male-dominated occupation means nothing. So why must we do the whole occupational sex segregation. Who knows. I know that i dont mind working with males.Males might mind working with me b/c im a female b/c of there resevations, or past exerences. yet there comes a time where people need to learn that prejudgement is at times uncalled. Not all females are the same an vis versa.
I'm not saying that all males, have done this for me. yet theres a good group. Its annoying, imature,sexist and really sad. Of all the things you could hold against someone your going to pick there job.That really small minded. That like me deciding not to talk to a guys just because hes shorter, or not as tall as i want him to be. now thats my opion, to do as i please, everyone has the right.Yet lifes not a one way stree and the mind shouldnt be either. With a bigger perspective of things were all, down for the cause,service,sacrifice.Shouldnt that be all that matters. i just think that when it all comes down to it all that should matter is that the people to the left and right of you are there for you. not if its a female then i hope theres a male standing behind her.Cause when you think about it what if there isnt. then what do you do wait?
So the bigger picture here is why dose it bother guys soo much that i have a assume to be for the guys MOS. Cause it never bothered me. I'm not sitting there gender roling them so why shouldn't i deserve the same respect. My job is my job its not a life alerting decision.
My job just like everyone elses is something i enjoy and work hard in.I have to work just as hard to keep it and have other respect for it. I have to prove myself in my work.i take pride in what i do and i wouldnt change that for the world. At work that fine.
Yet when iut comes to dating, why should i have to prove that im worth the time, because i have a what is concided to be male orriented job. how dose that make me any more or less worth the time of getting to know me. i mean lets be real here, i understand that to some its intimadating because there not sure what to except. but that dosent mean that everyones all the same.i take pride in what i do but that dosent mean that it consumes my life. Its my professions that dosent mean that im not girly.I'm a human being that likes trucks and likes to drive trucks.
i wouldnt walk up to someone and be i cant like you for you job.Thats really small minded and caddy.not to mention rude and self centered. I've been in long enought to know that as long as i hold my end of my work that all that matters at the end of the day. male or female,if your not holding your end and your proven it that is the ice breaker.
That my job dosent fully define me but it dose say something about me.That i like a challages,decidcation,dependence, willing to work,hold my own, adventious, have little fear, lots of confience, know the amount of effort that has to be put forth to work hard in team success.I mean when you think about it of all the things that guys complain about looking for and wanting. im pretty sure that as far as things go that dosnet sound all that bad. I might not be all body builder army girl, but im a army girl. that know that theres more to me then just my job and if people cant accept that then that all them.Its a shame the there resevations,misconceptions, would be what helpt them misout on one of the best! lol.. to be continued!
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"http://www.hqda.army.mil/ari/pdf/WomenInTheArmy-DrHarris.pdf"
That my job dosent fully define me but it dose say something about me.
Its been a while so I don’t know where to start. So this might be a long one. So I re-enlisted. Its cool only because at first I had always said that I wouldn’t. then after a while it became one of my goals. July 21 marked 4 years in the army (3 1/2 years service). I can’t believe its been that long it all went so quick. June 23 marked 2 years since the passing of one of greatest people. MSG Dwayne l. Nesbitt. I wish I had the chance to tell him how thankful I am for all his hard work. He really went above the expectation and putt up with a lot. I wish that he could see me now, how much I’ve changed. I miss the little notes of I’m rooting for ya. Yet I miss the dumb fights and our friendship. The speeches and encouragement. Very special man. I’m well aware that everyone says your recruiter suppose to bend over backwards to charm you in but there was more then pitched lines. There was someone who really cared fore me and wanted to see me become more successful.
I think in sprit he was there. I happen to of had a moment of the famous speech, “Now smith, Melissa. I’m not gonna call you private because I know your better then that. now all you got to do is keep ya head up and let life fall into place….Now go on, Melissa just keep staying quiet, following the rules of the this great Airborne division and one day you’ll get on my level don’t look at me like that you can. Well get you right. This army job we have, if you want to call it a job. Now go on. Smith, Melissa. Then this well lit smile as if I had a hard time being serious and says.. Now smith, Melissa Be all you can be!” I still laugh to myself about him.
I gave him such a hard time about stuff. “that doesn’t sound like me.” I honestly think like most people he only put up with it because he cared, an saw that I really wanted to change. He yelled at me once and I knew he wasn’t joking but only because he said PV2 smith. Come on now don’t make me call you Private. Or then Im get mad. and stop trying make me mad, this is real. Why you always got to be difficult “I came to the door hit that lovely rest position. Said in a serious authoritive voice, Yes SFC Nesbitt. I understand it will not happen again. And then he said, with that smile. SFC Nesbitt “Now smith, Melissa.” I miss him so much, but there are great memories. Yet I still stand true to my word. When he asked what, are you joining the army for and I said to get a tan ,work hard and travel. I’ve managed to do all 3.
In honor of the man that made, it possible for me to join the army. I decided what better way to show respect for a fallen brother. Then to re-up June,24.2009. I re-enlisted for 2 more years. I think right now I’m in a good spot, I’m challenged and the tough love of the 407th works wonders.
Its funny when people say why re-enlist don’t you know there’s a war. Are you that patriotic? Do you want to die? I smile and say “Well there was a war when I joined and with the way things are going with this war when I’m long gone there will still be a war. So why not. Now I’m not going to lie and say I do it for the flag! I guess the best way to explain.
If you asked me three years ago I would have to say I don’t really know. I joined the army because there was nothing in life that I was passionate about, as far college. I enjoyed the learning experience, just wasn’t ready to hold the responsibly. Didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life. Wanted better for myself and my son. Wanted to learn respect make something of myself. Wanted my parent to be proud of me. For along time the army has always interested me.
When I was younger I had seen a convoy of army trucks, and I remember just watching them. wondering how they worked, operated. I was basically fascinated. So I decided then that if I joined I wanted to be a truck driver. I remember everyone telling me when I had said that I wanted to drive trucks. Everyone’s main concern was do you know how dangerous that is, people die, cant you do something safer. My argument I want to drive. I never really worried about the whole could die, can die. I’m not sure why, I’ve always been the rebel, never really one to consider how dangerous something is, just do.
I think that when you wake up every morning for 13 months, tired and reckless and you can say I’m going on mission today. Lets get it started. and your more hyped about the job and the crazy stuff you get to do and it doesn’t bother you that you didn’t get all your sleep. Or when you find a job that makes you want to be better, because its made you a better person helped you grow and makes you give your all. And last there something unexplainable about being able to look at the flag and think. I cant believe that I’m apart of the craziest organization that helps make this world stay safe. I’m proud of that and its worth everything.I guess right now i just cant see myself doing anything different as of now.
So it’s been a while, I’m not sure if it was the chaos of life or just me being hard headed but its time. Sure been think for a while and it’s just time for me to clear my head. So we've established that the last relationship that I was in was one of those not good or cool for me. Then I decided to focus more on me. Personal development. And all that been working out. I was recently told that I’m doing better with that. So I’m good. Now as for the whole relationship part well. ... I feel like that girl that stands in the middle of the room and screams but no one but I can hear! Yeah... that not cool. I know what I want. I’m thinking that everyone else is in the dark. I have always been really great at find those people who are unfit for dating. well without prior knowledge that that person is that way. If has rude, mean, selfish, self center, conceited then he'll like me. Yet at first he comes across the opposite and then turn into that man. So I end up being like it will change blah. Blah and it never dos and it never a surprise that it will not. So you would think with all these years of experience with that I would be a expert and learn to just walk away... lol...hence the whole hard headed part. Then there those other guys who just turn weird, turn in to hermit, evil, players, the list goes on. So then a little ago a had chilled with someone who showed me all the attention in the world and it felt like we were old friends that had just chilled forever and it wasn’t forever it was a little bit of time. For the first time in forever it was about comfort, chillin talk and just hanging out. Long story short... we haven’t talked since then and when we did talk it was....I’m in that mood. well WTF does that mean...I understand the whole never want to talk, did like you, lol jokes on you just fit the time slot.. and all that but never im in that mood. that to me, and when i say it means im mad at the whole... not talk to anyone. don’t care. Which speaking of that.. yeah. that mood have it but wish i could talk to someone about it. Yet when this mood arrives there really no one to talk to so that why the whole blog....so its my venting block.. Only because when that mood hits its never a good thing. i hate being mad at the world and i hate being a mean person. Only because it so out of character for me. I 'm laid back.. but i've been cursed as a thinker. .minds always going, always think of life, people... just everything. so its hard for me to sort of life when life’s running through. So right now i feel like im on over drive an trying to slow down so that i can get back to where i reside. Yet its like the never ending puzzle. Everyone puts all these crazy pieces there and im tryna put mine there’s and then some. Soooooo who knows... i just need to breath and work it out.
